October 27

Man, I remember like it was yesterday when God showed me how He saw me.  I must have cried for 8 months.  I was embarrassed and felt soooo bad.  I really thought I had the answer by protecting myself from ever being hurt again by 1.  Being Mean and 2. getting people and hurting them first. When God revealed to me how I really looked; I was devastated.

And then I got angry with God.
I felt like He left me without an option. After all, He could have stopped everything from happening to me that happened and He didn't!  I cursed Him and blamed Him and told Him I was already in hell so what did I have to lose.  After my brat attack I heard God calmly speak to me and just ask me to trust Him.

I did and I have not looked back.

I had no idea 20 years ago that all that pain would lead to this wonderful Spiritual journey I am on now.  It has not been easy however; each time I am able to see what I believed as negative as a lesson  I grow and my eyes lose more scales off them. I was introduced to IMAGO Therapy by my Therapist and  it helped me understand that I was drawing things to me to heal those hurt broken places.

I remember having a conversation with my friend at the time and asking why does growth have to come from pain.  I remember them saying  that it is the only way you can grow. I fought that for the longest time but then my life started crashing and burning 3 years ago and I had to either accept the pain or be taken under.  I am not saying it is not hard; however it is a process and it is necessary.

At the end of the day I am so grateful to God for adjusting my rose colored glasses and healing my black heart.  Life is so much better for me this way.  God loves me and He is my protection and my refuge.  If anything ever hurts me - I know God has said I will be alright first.  I will make it through. (SMILE)

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Peace & Love

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