Another funny one.
I still can't believe I wrote all these 10 years ago.
It is a testament to God. Time is nothing to Him.
I started transitioning back around 1994/1995.
I was in my room in Baltimore, MD standing there and I heard God call my name - not the name I use now; the name I was born with. He said that was ENOUGH! I was shaking. It was no way to deny the voice; believe you me I wish it was just the pizza. I know it was midday. I was not sleeping and I don't do drugs and I had not been drinking.
After that experience I visualize myself standing in my own footprints and I turn and starting going the other direction. I didn't know anything about what I needed to do; I just knew to not go that way anymore.
So here is where the quote comes in. You NEVER had to ask me was I in my lane. I was only changing for myself. I had heard God and I was 100% focused on myself. Add to that I grew up spoiled and I just didn't have any room for being in anyone else's lane for any reason. I could not see anyone but myself and I didn't want to.
God has to have a sense of humor because in the course of my transition I became someone who helps people. Who knew! My friends laugh at me all the time when I journey with them. They say you have to write down what I tell them because once the conversation is over I don't know what I said. I don't know how I helped the person. In the early years I was afraid of my gift. I questioned God if He made the right choice in choosing me. I was honest with Him and asked Him didn't He know that I would be on the Infomercial selling my gift for a mere $99.95. Didn't He know I would betray Him. His answer to me was that is why He chose me. Who else would admit that to God? Who else would confess their heart. So with that I continue with my gift as a Life Coach/Change Agent/Speaker of Life - whatever name you want to call me.
I have met so many people and had so many unique experiences that I have stopped questioning God when He brings someone in my life. I simply speak the message He gives me for that person and move along. I have learned the hard way that messengers come in beautiful packages so now I ask the person are you a messenger prior to getting involved with them. LOL. I steer people away from me because now I know they are drawn by the light of God in me; not to me. If people really knew my heart they would run away. I am wonderfully flawed. I wear my flaws 1st lest someone think that I am something I am not. I have failed on so many levels; I am in need of forgiveness all the time. I am the hard head soft behind transition person. So don't be fooled. If you are drawn by my blog it is for a reason. I'd tell you to run - however; when your gift is ready to manifest it makes sense you are reading. You are in the maternity ward about to deliver and God (or whatever name you call who created you) has lead you here.
In closing I have read about boundaries now (Boundaries by Dr. Henry Cloud & Dr. John Townsend) and I understand staying in my lane. I understand that whatever a person is going through is their moment to transition and I would only impede/delay their growth if I get in their lane to do what I believe is helping. I am still learning however; understanding boundaries helps me walk in my gift and heal myself as I share my gift.
You have an 'OUT YOUR LANE ' story and want to share?
Please chime in.
Peace & Love
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