November 3

About a month or two ago I had 2 run ins with a woman at work.  It was confusing at first because just a few days prior she was speaking to me about a sick family member.  Usually I would not say anything but this time I asked her could I speak to her.  Nothing was resolved and just 1 month later she said something else negative to me and I just shook my head and left it alone.  I decided she was just dealing with her own stuff and trying to take it out on me. Because it was my job I really wanted to keep my workplace peaceful so I decided to distance myself from her and keep it moving.

The other side of me was ready to let her have it. I would sit at my desk and listen to things she would say and I had all these mean thoughts in my head. When I saw her in the hallway I thought of all the things I could say to her.  Even at home at night it would cross my mind.  I really wanted to get her back. I really wanted to confront her and let her have it.  I wanted to tell things to my supervisor that I knew she was doing so she would get in trouble.  I wanted to talk to the people who she quoted as saying things about me with her there - just put her on blast.  It was taking over my thought life.  I could feel my breathing changing and my teeth gritting and my anger just rising.  Then I took it to God.  And He showed me where I was allowing my issue with people being a hypocrite and my ego get the best of me. He said I was willing to exchange all the growth I had for the right to let her have it.  I never saw it that way however; I knew something was going on because it felt like something was poking me and driving me in my back to just say something to her.  It was too insistent.  So it had to be a Spiritual moment for me and I am grateful God showed me what was going on so I could make the right choice.

It did not get better over night.
It was a choice I made each day to walk away from that woman and see that it was my opportunity for growth. God said He would make my enemies my footstool - He didn't tell me to make them my foot stool.  If I allowed my ego to run things then that would be my reward. And my issue with hypocrites stems from my family and it's impossible to settle a family issue with a coworker.  I'd already Spiritually turned my family situation over to God; but my ego had not.  It wanted me to bring my wrath down on any and everyone who reminded me of the Hypocrite/Manipulation issues I grew up with.

My old life has nothing to do with my new life. The only thing my old life can do is mess up my new life and laugh at me after I fall for the Okie Doke.  It is so important to have my relationship with God be the most important thing in my life. It is the only way that I will be able to continue to grow and not be dragged about by my feelings and my ego.  The Human part of me has nothing to do with my Spiritual Life except for me to use what I believe is negative as a lesson. My Human part is not a creation part. The only part of me that creates is my Spiritual part.

It is not easy.  Again; it's just worth it to me.

Do you have a  'OLD LIFE/NEW LIFE ' story and want to share?  

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Peace & Love

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